Experience of a Female TiNe

The world is full of such subtle beauties. Fragile mysteries they are; the form of a spider's web, ripples in a puddle after the rain, the feeling evoked by the last note of a beloved song, the dim watermark of the Milky Way over the night sky, the intricate branching of veins in my hand as it's held up to the window's light.. Suspended in the sober air - a disembodied observer - I watch in wonder as reality speaks all around in geometric riddles. An ephemeral tragedy seeps into my dreamlike stillness.. immersed in this cosmos as I am, it seems I should see all things for what they truly are. My yearning is to drink in the deep mystery of this world and understand it to its smallest and most intimate detail. But I am so limited and see so little.. It is humbling, to live such an absurd sort of existence.


A metaphor for Ti:  I am a transparent sphere of void suspended outside of the physical world, completely dispassionate and matter-of-fact, but also very curious and consistently absorbed in my own thoughts..

Ultimately, I am guided by rationality. When making decisions, the question is firstly what makes the most intelligent sense in context, and secondly, what aligns with my principles. Unless it is contextually relevant, like in the case of creative manifestation or a relationship, I don't consider how I feel about things. Not letting feelings weigh into a conclusion about reality doesn't mean that I suppress them, however. I'm a strong advocate of self-awareness as a path to psychological health (not to mention development), and so always strive to at least acknowledge my feelings.

When analyzing things, it's more about picking out what's incorrect and invalidating it, than it is about seeing what's correct about an opinion/hypothesis/design/etc. In this way, I've very much experienced the deductive reasoning style of Ti. Through time, I've learned it's important to be careful when critiquing the arguments of others however, as the blunt, dispassionate negation of Ti tends to come off as condemning to a lot of people :/ (such has been the development of compromise between my Ti and Fe).

I spend a lot of time in my head (and am somewhat oblivious to the reality outside ) My thoughts tend toward theoretical exploration of the unknown, especially of those mysteries which I find most beautiful. I value accuracy - and therefore thoroughness - very highly, but when I'm studying a topic, the truth is it's more about finding where the threads of knowledge in it end than it is about knowing every detail of its tapestry. I am intrigued the most by what we know we don't know, by the next question that we're yet to answer and that could lead to a greater capacity for awareness or functionality. I'm quite motivated by progress; into the unknown and into the future. I'm also fascinated by the way systems work, especially electronics and the complex systems which emerge from nature. I could spend long hours examining such systems, dissecting them even o.o.. coming to know them in detail, and when possible, rebuilding them (perhaps with some refinements or additions ^^). I have an affinity for constructing hypotheses about how things work, as well as taxonomies.



Fe takes two distinct forms for me, light and dark. I call them Aelyn and Azalyn, respectively. The main difference I've seen between light and dark Fe is that the dark is an expression of the value of the individual, while the light is an expression of the value of the collective. I think because of my upbringing, these forms tend to manifest rather independently, resulting in a polar expression. My Aelyn can be described as a rational diplomatic, and aims to harmonize situations through encouraging understanding between differing opinions. Her perspective is inclusive and non-judgemental, and the role she plays both externally and internally is much like a counselor. Although still an expression of Fe, my Azalyn doesn't favor harmony or acceptance of others as my Aelyn does. She is mainly about complete dispassionate acceptance of raw reality, especially those things that are commonly suppressed by society or uncomfortable by default to the human heart. She is the primary element in me which challenges any views that may be held for the sake of a sense of consistency or safety. This quote by Carl Sagan exemplifies the view of my Azalyn: 'It is far better to grasp the universe as it really is than to persist in delusion, however satisfying and reassuring.' Secondarily, my Azalyn is the element of me that focuses on self-preservation - including and perhaps especially of my own principles. In this way, and in her appreciation for dark beauty, she isn't entirely unbiased like Ti.



It's said there's a fine line between genius and insanity. Ne doesn't know the difference between the two sides of this line.

.. It's a jumprope right?! *skip* *skip* *skip*

Ne has a specific character in me, I call her (or sometimes him.. depending on the moment) Xyluir. She has a vibe kind of like Alice in Wonderland with a dark French flair. She's the daring adventurousness, eccentricity, humor, and creative sensuality in me. While she knows no limits as far as association and exploration goes, she does like to do things 'with style'. I've developed a very particular aesthetic over time, especially when it comes to artwork, and this lends a certain intelligence to the operation of my Ne.

I started developing my Ne early in life, because most everyone in my family used it heavily. I was encouraged to develop a sense of intuition/abstract thought by my parents, and began dabbling with art and creative writing, which eventually became favorite habits. It wasn't long before I discovered fantasy stories, and became immersed in my own imaginary world made up of magic and fantastical creatures as an escape from real life. Eventually, Ne had a practical application when I became a professional artist. 3D animation was the perfect combination of logistical precision (Ti) and on-the-spot creativity (Ne).

I think I'd probably be pretty boring/talentless without her, but Xyluir also distracts me at times Ti could go in a direction of inquiry and deduction indefinitely, but Ne possesses the driving energy as my major extroverted function. Therefore, when Xyluir becomes bored with something, I may lose the ability to pursue it further even if interest still exists. I have oh so many unfinished projects D: >.<  XP


Si plays a relatively marginal role in my psyche, although one that is important for organization of thought. It's the librarian of my mind, and holds my ethological and memory frameworks in place. Si also plays a role in structuring my thoughts before expression, as it holds all of my vocabulary and the rules of sentence structure, etc. Language is probably one of my favorite things to play with, but also valuing accuracy the way I do, it's important to me that both what I say and the way I say it is clear and correct. Therefore, Si collaborates a lot with Ti to structure articulations before Fe gets a hold of them to analyze for ethical/social consistency. (maybe this explains why I talk like I'm reading out of a textbook sometimes o,o)

My Si has a somewhat antagonistic relationship with Ne, who barges in and messes up the 'bookshelves' from time to time. All and all, I think these two functions appreciate each other though, since without Ne, Si would have very little material in storage, and without Si, Ne wouldn't have any place to put all her data and great ideas!